As I felt my ingrown reminding me of how simple life was, I felt the itch to set an appointment with my nail technician in spite of the reality that I am in - a mother with a 6-week old infant.
To be frank, aside from close friends, the people from this salon are part of that small circle that I really want my baby to meet, simply because they provided comfort during that grueling 9-month journey.
They were thrilled to see her as my baby was still in my tummy the last time I was there, and I felt their sincerity when they said "ang ganda ng anak mo". Even random strangers find her beautiful that they feel the need to say it out loud. I am glad because I prayed for it, along with other specific characteristics, however I now feel the pressure to look my best, or at least try look better otherwise I might be mistaken for my child's yaya.
Everything went fine until my pedicure session was about to end - she finished the whole bottle of milk in one sitting and had to spit it ALL OUT because she was distracted with the change of environment. Lesson learned: infants should be oriented to changes in scenery the same way you would with domesticated animals, otherwise there will be undesirable behavior.
Nonetheless, we took it with a grain of salt and still ate samgyup. We were able to eat in peace as she slept soundly.
Then came our ENT appointment the following day... we were told that her ears are congested and was asked if she had a cold, or fever which was definitely not the case. So I told the doctor what happened yesterday wherein some of the milk went through her nose. When the doctor heard this, he got really worried and honestly speaking, I realized that the doctors that I've been dealing with, from my OB, my baby's pedia and this ENT doctor, they are not the type who will tell you specifically what to do. If you're not street smart nor have common sense, these doctors are not a good match for you. And honestly speaking sometimes I feel the need to change doctors but then I realized it is a two-way street and I gotta learn how to ask the right questions. When I'm outdoors with my baby, all I can think of is getting back home as soon as I can, thus forgetting my agenda to begin with.
I sure hope my baby will pass her next hearing test...
After the lecture we got from the ENT doctor, I can't help but get more anxious because prior to finding out my baby's current condition, I requested my husband if I can get a decent, uninterrupted sleep just for one night. I have to make sure he's doing everything right which gave me a headache upon seeing how he manages his time when taking care of our baby. We agreed that he will have his dry run tonight then give me two nights if uninterrupted sleep moving forward yet I still can't sleep because I am worried that he is not doing it the way I would take care of our kid. To add, she just got vaccinated today as well.
I really hope everything goes well. I love my child and I want to take care of her 24/7 but I am really tired.
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